When I hear out-of-my-control things on the news or from a friend or family member, or experience them in my own life, I barrel quickly toward fear and anxiety.
All the “what-if” thoughts careen into my head and heart.
Depending on the day….
I run the other way and pretend it doesn’t exist.
I get angry and try to come up with a plan to fix it.
I just take a nap or watch mind-numbing television.
I become completely paralyzed, staring out the window, unable to do anything.
Super rarely I…
STOP
breathe
pour out my heart
connect with God
what I actually might need more.
Not too long ago, one of these “doozies” reared its ugly head.
It was something with one of my kids.
It kept coming up over and over and no matter what I tried, the problem just wasn’t getting fixed or even getting pushed in the right direction.
It was NOT for lack of effort on my part.
I had tried my usual…
fleeing
fighting
fainting
freezing
along with better tools like…
counseling
talking with friends
prayer
you-name-it.
One night
in the dark
on my knees
tears pouring out
making one last-ditch effort telling God I was super serious this time,
the word “Hosanna” flooded my mind and also my mouth.
I wasn’t sure why.
I had to check it out.
What did this word that I had heard so often in my churchy life even mean?
Thanks to ever-helpful Google, I found that “HOSANNA” was originally an appeal for deliverance, a cry that shouted
PLEASE SAVE!!
PLEASE SAVE!!
Over time, it developed into an expression of
joy and praise for deliverance
that was anticipated and WOULD be granted,
an oral burst of HOPE in God, an “anchor for your soul” kind of HOPE.
Being the “doer” that I am, I came up with a “Hosanna List,” that “doozie” being at the very top.
I keep adding other (lots of other)…
completely-out-of-my-control
hopeless
desperate-feeling
only God-can-fix-this
things.
I only have one word for them:“HOSANNA.”
PLEASE SAVE!
PLEASE SAVE!
I would imagine you have your own “Hosanna list.”
If it’s not written down, it’s swirling around in your head.
Take courage, my friend.
We have a God who not only CAN SAVE, but WANTS TO VERY MUCH!
It’s HIS JOB.
It’s HIS WILL.
There’s nothing too small or too great!
There really is great hope!
HOSANNA!
PLEASE SAVE!