I jolt awake at 4:40 am.
My husband’s ride for his early morning flight never arrives.
Flying by the seat of his pants (pun intended), he jumps in his car and is off in the darkness.
I lay eyes wide open.
I don’t want to be awake yet. It’s so dark out. I didn’t plan on this.
“Don’t forget. You have decided to heed the call of the darkness this winter,” the Lover of My Soul reminds me.
I stir, don my cozy slippers and venture to the big room with the big dark windows, turn on the Christmas tree and open the wood-burning stove. I leave the rest of the house quiet. Dark.
“Darkness, what do you have for me this morning?”
My Savior greets me softly and the darkness answers.
“You need me this morning, my friend.”
“You need silence to settle your frenzied mind.”
“You need solitude to rest your weary soul.”
“You need stillness to revive your anxious body.”
“You need Shalom (remember your Word of the Year?) to heal your troubled spirit.”
“You need me this morning, my friend.”
Right outside those big, dark windows, the light will dawn in a few moments and display the freshly-fallen snow.
It will be glorious.
BUT for now, I sit in the darkness.
The Dolly Mama 