I want to watch Law and Order.
I want to eat coconut almond joy ice cream.
I want to wash every sheet and towel in the house.
I want to take a nap.
I WANT TO NUMB IT.
I don’t want to sit with the sadness of saying goodbye to the summer.
I don’t want to sit with the sadness of saying goodbye to my husband and children and their loves.
I don’t want to sit with the sadness of saying goodbye to the squeals of laughter from my most adorable grandson.
I don’t want to sit with the sadness of saying goodbye to the fireworks, the sandy flip flops, the bike rides and eating pizza without guilt.
BUT I WILL.
I won’t watch Law and Order at least until later tonight.
I won’t eat ice cream until tomorrow.
I might wash some of the sheets and towels, but not all of them.
I will stay awake, sit on the porch and make friends with this place I find myself in. I am sad and that’s EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.
I am also strangely okay.
Front porch, summer’s end, here I come.
“A time to laugh. A time to weep.” (Solomon)
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Sometimes we just NEED to feel sad, cry it out, and get on with it. It is ok.